Today was quite a fun day, despite having to go to school. We walked all the way to Tanjung today just for breakfast, but despite that it was still relaxing and I got to spend time with my closest friends. We also wanted to do our Add Maths project while we were there, but sadly, there was only one circular object that we could find.
Either way, we had some fried er... I'm not quite sure what's the term for it, shared a bowl of ABC between the 3 of us and ordered an apple juice respectively, which I might add was rather watery. We actually ordered another rojak, but were too full, and thank God that the stall owner had either accidentally or purposely forgotten our order. Now that I think of it, since we're such gluttons, how much space will we have in our stomachs when at the 'Glutton Street'?
Today was also surprising in a sense that only 3 of us from our class went to school for Biology tuition, yes I'm serious, 3 out of a class of 28. On the bright side, we learnt more than we ever would from the teacher with the whole class present since we had 1-on-3 time with the teacher.
By the way, is it really a long distance from our school to Tanjung? It was breezy, cool and just nice for a walk, add the fact that I was with my friends, so it was definitely enjoyable. This is just a very bland blog entry that I'm typing for the sake of typing, and I'm bored!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Examination Relief!
Exams are finally over, well at least the mid-term ones. Unfortunately, there's a rumour going around that there might be a 'pop-exam' coming around July, oh bloody friggin' joy! Exams are nothing but a pain in the butt and neck, literally, from sitting too long and bending your head over the damned book!
Either way, I am not really happy about how things turned out today. I suppose that there was a better way to handle things, but sometimes it gets too much. Doesn't matter anymore, I've the whole two weeks of holiday to have fun and simply unwind, not to mention the fact that I'm going to be spending some time with my close friends. Yes, I do have friends, even if I don't have a lot.
I'm contented with the friends I have, and at the very least, all my friends are dependable and I can trust them not to betray me, unlike some mistakes I've made in the past. I would rather have a few but close friends who will not betray me rather than have a pack of back-stabbing bitches and bastards who claim to be my 'friends'. If I do have this problem, then a purge is the easiest way to deal with this. I've done it before, and I'm not afraid to do it again.
Hmm, my itinerary should include going ice-skating, playing a few rounds of mah-jong, mastering a piano piece or two, sleeping, going to the gym, go swimming, playing badminton, and basically, having fun. I'm still internally debating on whether or not I should go for HSM's talent time, I don't particularly feel inclined to go, and the only reason as to why I'm considering this is because Adeline wants to go. Anyway, at the rate things are going, I doubt that I'll be going.
I'm feel terrible lately, I'm not sleeping peacefully, and I almost always end up waking up feeling disorientated and empty. I never feel like that when I wake up, I almost always wake up alert and ready to go, so this is a rather unpleasant experience. Not to mention that my back feels rather sore when I curl up on my side, and my shoulders feel stiff and simply uncomfortable.
Perhaps it was just the exam blues, it had better be. Since the exams are over, I should be going back to normal now. I'm really bored though, there's nothing to realy entertain me here, and I'm bored!!!! This sucks!!! Adeline, I'm bored!!!!!!!! Can't I go to your house for some DDR soon?!! My disk is still with you, and I miss it!
Either way, I am not really happy about how things turned out today. I suppose that there was a better way to handle things, but sometimes it gets too much. Doesn't matter anymore, I've the whole two weeks of holiday to have fun and simply unwind, not to mention the fact that I'm going to be spending some time with my close friends. Yes, I do have friends, even if I don't have a lot.
I'm contented with the friends I have, and at the very least, all my friends are dependable and I can trust them not to betray me, unlike some mistakes I've made in the past. I would rather have a few but close friends who will not betray me rather than have a pack of back-stabbing bitches and bastards who claim to be my 'friends'. If I do have this problem, then a purge is the easiest way to deal with this. I've done it before, and I'm not afraid to do it again.
Hmm, my itinerary should include going ice-skating, playing a few rounds of mah-jong, mastering a piano piece or two, sleeping, going to the gym, go swimming, playing badminton, and basically, having fun. I'm still internally debating on whether or not I should go for HSM's talent time, I don't particularly feel inclined to go, and the only reason as to why I'm considering this is because Adeline wants to go. Anyway, at the rate things are going, I doubt that I'll be going.
I'm feel terrible lately, I'm not sleeping peacefully, and I almost always end up waking up feeling disorientated and empty. I never feel like that when I wake up, I almost always wake up alert and ready to go, so this is a rather unpleasant experience. Not to mention that my back feels rather sore when I curl up on my side, and my shoulders feel stiff and simply uncomfortable.
Perhaps it was just the exam blues, it had better be. Since the exams are over, I should be going back to normal now. I'm really bored though, there's nothing to realy entertain me here, and I'm bored!!!! This sucks!!! Adeline, I'm bored!!!!!!!! Can't I go to your house for some DDR soon?!! My disk is still with you, and I miss it!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Wrong
Something is going wrong in my life right now, it's being thrown off kilter. I"m not sure why, but I've been getting strange vibes, been acting strangely myself, and am suffering from disturbingly dreamless sleeps.
One thing for sure, friendship is over-rated right now. I'm highly suspicious on who to trust and who not to trust, and I can't trust my instincts because I'm not being myself. Once I review over things, I realise that some of the bonds I treasure aren't really solid at all. They're just there to help me get through the year, and after that it'll disintegrate to nothingness. It also came upon me that those bonds that I have, well they seem superficial.
While it seems that there's nothing wrong on the outside, my emotions are really on an odd swing. I've been getting mood swings, snapping at Adeline, well it's partly her fault and I couldn't care less but still it feels odd for some reason as I don't do it without a good reason. It's as though someone has taken over me, my soul and my mind.
Not to mention the fact that another friend has just told me about her suspicions about another friend and I'm not sure what to think. Adeline, if you're going to tell me not to think too much I'll grab a pie and drop it on your face when you're asleep.
Firstly, I'm being mean, deliberately. While I am like that at times, it strikes me as odd. I can't pinpoint it, but it's just odd. Unfortunately, Adeline has been bearing the brunt of my frustrations. I have no idea how to interact with her anymore, and I certainly do not want to come across as a fool. Well I'll let her decide for me on what to do, and then I'll take it from there if I like it.
Either way, I wish that I could read minds, it'll help in so many ways. I seem to be dishing out a hell lot of apologies ever since I met that idiot, and I do not like it!
One thing for sure, friendship is over-rated right now. I'm highly suspicious on who to trust and who not to trust, and I can't trust my instincts because I'm not being myself. Once I review over things, I realise that some of the bonds I treasure aren't really solid at all. They're just there to help me get through the year, and after that it'll disintegrate to nothingness. It also came upon me that those bonds that I have, well they seem superficial.
While it seems that there's nothing wrong on the outside, my emotions are really on an odd swing. I've been getting mood swings, snapping at Adeline, well it's partly her fault and I couldn't care less but still it feels odd for some reason as I don't do it without a good reason. It's as though someone has taken over me, my soul and my mind.
Not to mention the fact that another friend has just told me about her suspicions about another friend and I'm not sure what to think. Adeline, if you're going to tell me not to think too much I'll grab a pie and drop it on your face when you're asleep.
Firstly, I'm being mean, deliberately. While I am like that at times, it strikes me as odd. I can't pinpoint it, but it's just odd. Unfortunately, Adeline has been bearing the brunt of my frustrations. I have no idea how to interact with her anymore, and I certainly do not want to come across as a fool. Well I'll let her decide for me on what to do, and then I'll take it from there if I like it.
Either way, I wish that I could read minds, it'll help in so many ways. I seem to be dishing out a hell lot of apologies ever since I met that idiot, and I do not like it!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Screw Cooking!!!
I swear that some God out there was playing with me when I was in the kitchen preparing dinner (spaghetti) for my siblings and myself as dinner, maybe even a poltergeist.
I had prepared everything to get started and when I tried to open the pasta jar it slipped out of my hand and crashed into the stone kitchen counter. It was made of glass and was full damn it!!! What a waste, and what a pain in the butt!!!
The sauce and glass splattered all over the place! The kitchen counter, the floor, the sink, the stove, you name it! It even splattered over me! I got a few cuts from the glass shards but thankfully none were deep, though they were bleeding slightly and I got blood on my shirt as well without realising it. I ended up wailing for help from my sister and we managed to clean up the mess.
Then I started cooking at last. Of all the things to happen, I had to get scalded. While the damage was minimal since it centered mostly on my fingers, the water was boiling when it splashed on me! Sigh, so I went to rinse my hand with cold water.
To my dismay, there was no cold water in the kitchen tap from some reason I do not know. I couldn't go to the bathroom because I had to watch the stove, so I ended up rinsing my hand with warm to hot water. Damn the cuts stung, so did the scalds. I have 2 cuts on my left and right wrists respectively, as well as a hole made by a stupid shard of glass on my right palm. My left middle finger was scalded and so was my right palm. In conclusion, this was not my day.
Sigh, to add to my irritation I had to wash up after cooking because we didn't have a maid. Soap is painful once it comes into contact with wounds, remind me to keep that in mind when I wash up because I forgot about it. Another piece of annoyance was that a boy younger than me by a year had the gall to insult me. He actually said, "You actually know what a kitchen is? Are you safe? Don't attempt to cook again or the headlines will say "Kitchen kills Girl". I hope that you'll find a chef as a husband.". How rude, I promptly gave him a piece of my mind, at least he apologised.
Despite how I act, I actually know how to cook! Well, given my past it's not a surprise. Is it that hard to believe that I can actually cook a decent meal? Or should I specially cook a meal and 'accidentally' add poison into it before serving it? I've done it enough to actually what goes and what doesn't, so don't ever dare insult me like that!
Anyway, at the end of the day I had a friend who insulted me, another who took charge and told me what to do with my wounds, a friend who didn't seem to really care, and a friend who cared but on a lesser scale. Frankly, I could really do with a good cold bath or a dip in the pool.
I had prepared everything to get started and when I tried to open the pasta jar it slipped out of my hand and crashed into the stone kitchen counter. It was made of glass and was full damn it!!! What a waste, and what a pain in the butt!!!
The sauce and glass splattered all over the place! The kitchen counter, the floor, the sink, the stove, you name it! It even splattered over me! I got a few cuts from the glass shards but thankfully none were deep, though they were bleeding slightly and I got blood on my shirt as well without realising it. I ended up wailing for help from my sister and we managed to clean up the mess.
Then I started cooking at last. Of all the things to happen, I had to get scalded. While the damage was minimal since it centered mostly on my fingers, the water was boiling when it splashed on me! Sigh, so I went to rinse my hand with cold water.
To my dismay, there was no cold water in the kitchen tap from some reason I do not know. I couldn't go to the bathroom because I had to watch the stove, so I ended up rinsing my hand with warm to hot water. Damn the cuts stung, so did the scalds. I have 2 cuts on my left and right wrists respectively, as well as a hole made by a stupid shard of glass on my right palm. My left middle finger was scalded and so was my right palm. In conclusion, this was not my day.
Sigh, to add to my irritation I had to wash up after cooking because we didn't have a maid. Soap is painful once it comes into contact with wounds, remind me to keep that in mind when I wash up because I forgot about it. Another piece of annoyance was that a boy younger than me by a year had the gall to insult me. He actually said, "You actually know what a kitchen is? Are you safe? Don't attempt to cook again or the headlines will say "Kitchen kills Girl". I hope that you'll find a chef as a husband.". How rude, I promptly gave him a piece of my mind, at least he apologised.
Despite how I act, I actually know how to cook! Well, given my past it's not a surprise. Is it that hard to believe that I can actually cook a decent meal? Or should I specially cook a meal and 'accidentally' add poison into it before serving it? I've done it enough to actually what goes and what doesn't, so don't ever dare insult me like that!
Anyway, at the end of the day I had a friend who insulted me, another who took charge and told me what to do with my wounds, a friend who didn't seem to really care, and a friend who cared but on a lesser scale. Frankly, I could really do with a good cold bath or a dip in the pool.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I'm back
Sigh, I'm really reluctant to come back to Muar after spending such a fun and relaxing time in KL with my mother and my favorite extended family. I spent Friday and most of my Saturday with my mother, and had a relaxing day with her. On the later part of Saturday and half on Sunday I spent it with my favourite relatives.
It was really a fun day, I learnt how to play Mahjong at long last. It was quite fun since I managed to win twice in a row at first before losing to my aunt. Then I won 4 games in a row, to my sister and aunt's chagrin. Lol, winning is fun, but having fun is a better thing.
It was really a fun day, I learnt how to play Mahjong at long last. It was quite fun since I managed to win twice in a row at first before losing to my aunt. Then I won 4 games in a row, to my sister and aunt's chagrin. Lol, winning is fun, but having fun is a better thing.
Guilt and Smugness
I'm feeling way odd now. I just broke the news about my brother's actions to my father in front of my cousins and my cousin's girlfriend. He didn't take it really well, and my stupid sister tried to make things worse by adding in an old incident.
He looked really... I can't explain... when I told him that my mother told me to tell him that it was called Domestic Violence. All I know that he must feel terrible that I would tell my mother but not him. Sigh, my stupid sis just had to rub salt in his wounds by adding that he was never around anyway.
This is troublesome, I feel guilty for making my father feel that way, though it was long overdue, but I also feel smug that my stupid brother is finally going to face the music for his actions.
On another note, my cousin's girlfriend helped me to massage the bruise on my left arm using a somewhat smelly herb mixture for bruises. It hurt a little at first, but I got used to it soon enough. It doens't look too bad, though it feels like there's a straining sensation in my muscle. At least it'll go away soon because it's starting to interfere with my daily activities. Imagine having to take extra care of you dominant arm because you injured it, sometimes you'll actually forget that you have an injury there and regret it later when you do something to aggravate it.
Sigh, I totally missed my other cousin's daughter's full moon party. My mother took a long time in getting ready, causing us to leave her condominium around 20-30 minutes late, and then we took 30 minutes to reach my grandmother's house. I'm not sure how long we took for dinner, but all I remember about it was that it was too salty and too sweet. After we sent my grandmother home, my mother got lost on the way to my cousin's condominium and had to call up for directions. All in all, instead of arriving at the party, I arrived after the party. Sigh, it's a little disappointing though, having to miss it because I was looking forward to it.
My mother on the other hand, was late for her ballroom dancing session by at least 45 minutes. I think it's safe to say that she's bad with time as well as with directions. I'm thinking of investing in a GPS system for her birthday/Christmas present, it'll definitely come in handy.
On another note, my hearing dropped again. It seems that if it drops any lower, I'll have to change my hearing aid to a bigger version, and I"m not happy about it because it's quite close to dropping over the required boundary for the current one I have now. I'm really worried about this, because the cells in my ear cannot regenerate, and if they can't regenerate then my hearing loss is permanent until a genius scientist has found a way to regenerate the dead cells in the human ear.
He looked really... I can't explain... when I told him that my mother told me to tell him that it was called Domestic Violence. All I know that he must feel terrible that I would tell my mother but not him. Sigh, my stupid sis just had to rub salt in his wounds by adding that he was never around anyway.
This is troublesome, I feel guilty for making my father feel that way, though it was long overdue, but I also feel smug that my stupid brother is finally going to face the music for his actions.
On another note, my cousin's girlfriend helped me to massage the bruise on my left arm using a somewhat smelly herb mixture for bruises. It hurt a little at first, but I got used to it soon enough. It doens't look too bad, though it feels like there's a straining sensation in my muscle. At least it'll go away soon because it's starting to interfere with my daily activities. Imagine having to take extra care of you dominant arm because you injured it, sometimes you'll actually forget that you have an injury there and regret it later when you do something to aggravate it.
Sigh, I totally missed my other cousin's daughter's full moon party. My mother took a long time in getting ready, causing us to leave her condominium around 20-30 minutes late, and then we took 30 minutes to reach my grandmother's house. I'm not sure how long we took for dinner, but all I remember about it was that it was too salty and too sweet. After we sent my grandmother home, my mother got lost on the way to my cousin's condominium and had to call up for directions. All in all, instead of arriving at the party, I arrived after the party. Sigh, it's a little disappointing though, having to miss it because I was looking forward to it.
My mother on the other hand, was late for her ballroom dancing session by at least 45 minutes. I think it's safe to say that she's bad with time as well as with directions. I'm thinking of investing in a GPS system for her birthday/Christmas present, it'll definitely come in handy.
On another note, my hearing dropped again. It seems that if it drops any lower, I'll have to change my hearing aid to a bigger version, and I"m not happy about it because it's quite close to dropping over the required boundary for the current one I have now. I'm really worried about this, because the cells in my ear cannot regenerate, and if they can't regenerate then my hearing loss is permanent until a genius scientist has found a way to regenerate the dead cells in the human ear.
Friday, April 17, 2009
This sucks!
Getting beaten up with no chance to defend yourself is no fun at all. I just did a through check up of my injuries and found out that there was more. I probably sprained a muscle or two in my neck from trying to get away from the bastard and managed to bruise my thighs as well, oh joy.
I'm not too sure if I sprained my neck muscles but all I know is that there's a painful bump where the muscles are. I haven't even told my father yet about this, not sure if I should. What more, tomorrow I'm going to be wearing a shirt that will not have long enough sleeves to cover my bruise on my left arm, what am I going to say when someone asks about it?
Should I lie to save myself and indirectly, the bastard, from capital punishment; or should I tell the truth and see where things go from there? I'm still not sure, but my mother is forcing me to tell the truth, else she would do it herself.
On another note, I'm happy to conclude that I'm not in love with anyone, or have a crush on anyone, mainly 'someone'. I find it interesting to twist and play with emotions and see where it'll lead, and I've also managed to drag a couple of others into the game. Unfortunately, this game is getting boring, so I've got to find another game to amuse myself with least I cause some damage.
It's funny how I can delude myself and others as well into thinking that I'm 'in love' or have a 'crush' on someone, then again illusions are rather easy to conjure as long as you act well enough. I can't say that I got anything out of it though, which makes it even more boring. Sigh, leading a rigmarole is boring! Then again it lets me see things from a different perspective, so it's a neutral settlement.
I'm in KL now, and tomorrow I'll be going to my hearing aid provider to do a few tests to determine if my hearing has worsen, which I suspect it has. I really don't want my hearing to worsen, it's one of my biggest fears. I can't imagine having to go through life wearing a hearing aid everyday and still missing out on some words because I can't catch them.
I'm not too sure if I sprained my neck muscles but all I know is that there's a painful bump where the muscles are. I haven't even told my father yet about this, not sure if I should. What more, tomorrow I'm going to be wearing a shirt that will not have long enough sleeves to cover my bruise on my left arm, what am I going to say when someone asks about it?
Should I lie to save myself and indirectly, the bastard, from capital punishment; or should I tell the truth and see where things go from there? I'm still not sure, but my mother is forcing me to tell the truth, else she would do it herself.
On another note, I'm happy to conclude that I'm not in love with anyone, or have a crush on anyone, mainly 'someone'. I find it interesting to twist and play with emotions and see where it'll lead, and I've also managed to drag a couple of others into the game. Unfortunately, this game is getting boring, so I've got to find another game to amuse myself with least I cause some damage.
It's funny how I can delude myself and others as well into thinking that I'm 'in love' or have a 'crush' on someone, then again illusions are rather easy to conjure as long as you act well enough. I can't say that I got anything out of it though, which makes it even more boring. Sigh, leading a rigmarole is boring! Then again it lets me see things from a different perspective, so it's a neutral settlement.
I'm in KL now, and tomorrow I'll be going to my hearing aid provider to do a few tests to determine if my hearing has worsen, which I suspect it has. I really don't want my hearing to worsen, it's one of my biggest fears. I can't imagine having to go through life wearing a hearing aid everyday and still missing out on some words because I can't catch them.
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